Thursday, October 29, 2009,
I love my new CG, (tho this's only like half of em and cong's taking the pic (: )
shalln't elaborate.
Sat service was awesome awesome awesome
Angel visited.
Slacking. i mean. STUDYING at SMU at night.
Chisun says " I KNOW HOWTA BE GANGSTA NOW."
RIGHT
shall rush thru this.
hate it when i've to use the com
cuz i'll clear my mail and then update fb and blog. I'll feel extremely weird otherwise. AH. this sucks. Guess Pavlov's experiment proved to be good and true. yep
SO. english and math papers have passed.
Both were screwed.
There goes my A outta the window. I feel really despondent. Really. Cuz math was my best sub.
BUT! We know that all things work together for the good for those who love God, to those who are the called according to His Purpose(Romans 8:28)
SO. well more importnatly, I've been doubting the capacity of my faith the past few days. Not whether i Believe, cuz youp bet i do, but after reading revelations.. like. in a world thats ending, there's havoc everywhere. those that just confess their faith will be tortured in unimaginable ways, just for mere words. and i seriously doubted what i'd do in a situation like that. Now, don't go jumping to conclusions cuz of this statement, cuz i guess we'll never know unless we really put our feet in shoes of that time. THEN. i read a revelation 12:7-12. And tho i couldn't fully understand the passage, i felt totally renewed in my faith. Praise God aye? cuz like Joel says, He does make miracles happen.
yep. Thanks much to Joel and Twin too for taking my after-math-rants.
TODAY
was really tiring. I slept at 1 last night, was up by 6, mom goes to the gym every morn. i decided to follow her, but i was gonn study. i sat down at the cafe, opened my bag, grandly reached in- to realize i forgot to bring my books. How stupid right? i think my brain's really screwed. Alright. went to swim 40 laps instead. BUT. Forgot goggles. so. yep. but still. haha the harder it gets, the more i wanna force myself thru it. Told you my brain's screwed. Shower, changed, stockings, dress, blazer, makeup. Work. 12 per hour. it's just for today. Don't wanna ask mom for allowance. Matt was my partner for today. Made new friends, got scolded, Boss reminds me of Ms Kim. To town, met with Zhicai, David, Mq, Dominic. Dinner. home.
TOMORROWW
Study in the morn/afternoon(maybe) with class peeps
CG tmr evening with them awesome ppl.
probably to My place to overnight study afterwards.
Hope it'll be productive (:
Other than that,
Inflovia Aut Sole Probatio Incipit In Tempore;
Come rain come shine, exams start on time.
Sadly.
BUT. BUTBUTBUT.
WE WILL GET THROUGH THIS SO SWIFTLY AND EFFORTLESSLY BY THE GRACE OF GOD, WE WILL NEITHER FALL NOR STUMBLE, WE WILL TAP INTO HIS PILLAR OF STRENGTH. i mean. if i don't get my ten points, like Jian said, maybe God doesn't want me to become a vet. :s i guess that makes sense. Whats over is in His hands now. For now, We reap what we sow. SOW HARD PEOPLE.
`Jol
Faith. Nothing goes wrong with it.
10:37 PM
Wednesday, October 21, 2009,
So, I'm slackin and surfin the net when my practical is less than 24 hours away. Well done Jolyn, well done. neways. Quick one.
Nightsafari last friday with the awesome awesome people.
Was hardly scary. Ben n Jerry's probably the best part :l
yeah well. Its the ppl you're with that makes things awesoe, no?
Will let Pictures do the talking!
Never fails to pull the most "I am Bored" award.
I thought it was fake, and went to poke it. Turns out, its real. haha
Love this.
Love this more.
LOVE THIS MOST. esp Alson's expression. haha
MMM zebra.
Fake much? haha
SATURDAYChurch service was soo awesome.
worship was to die for.( no pun intended)
I've a new CG. haha with all the O lvl ppl. Ah well.
SUNDAY
SUNDAY
airport study with them equally awesome church peeps.
Met Yaoyi at novena then the rest at Cityhall, they had dinner, we slacked for abit and let our inner child take over us at the kids corner. I got a papercut! D: To TCC where the innernerds took over.
I'm surprised i hardly felt like sleeping. Guess thats what Coffee, Sugar and hotawesomeamazingfantastic people can do to you.
Productivity test: Pass
Once again, pictures are lousy, taken with phone by Zhi Cai.
YaoYiCong. Hah cool.
No it wasn't posed, and yes i know i look spaz.
Matts very very gay poisture. haha
and a beautiful sunrise to top it off.
Home to my lovely lovely Corlie,slept for 2 hours, then had to be up and out of the house
Guess thats all. oh and i scored this shot just now.Haha the ultimate climber.
`Jol
"why'd you cut bangs when you're gonna push it to the side and make people think it's not bangs??"
Nicely said, David, nicely said.
5:04 PM
Monday, October 19, 2009,
Note: I'm back to this skin 'cause there're some defects with the other one and I've no time to do everything now. Thursday marks the start of it, i can't believe the four years of my secondary hood measures down to the next thirty or so days. On the bright side, I've aweseom friends that ton at Changi Airport with me (: I really wanna post up pics from the night safari and changi but I don't really know when my conscience will allow me. I'm falling behind my work, I feel stupid, I'm getting scared. So yeah. Till next time.
MODESTY
Modesty. A seemingly tacit word; so quiet yet lurking beneath the conscience of every girl. A word that resonates amongst the minds of ever being that had been shaped by that of society and its’ ideas. So really, what is the difference between the lingerie model and the prostitute standing at the roadside? Is it simply because of the fame and glamour associated to it? After all, both are jobs regarding the selling of one’s body.
A long-sleeved blouse is more modest than tank-top. This bold faces statement is an aphorism. Needless to be spoken aloud, the mere mind of a human being will simply register it as, to put it bluntly, “ less skin, more modest”. Why is it that if you show more skin, you are, unintentionally, trying to give the male gender intentions. Really, what if a long-sleeved blouse compliments your body more than that of a halter, to put it in layman terms, you look like a lugubrious street begger in a singlet, but look exuberant in a blouse. Goes to show, it is not always that when you have more skin showing, and not meaning that of a swimsuit, but simply a sleeveless blouse juxtaposed against that of a sleeved one, you get more attention.
It is to my utmost umbrage when I hear the insinuation of how it “ is not very good” to wear shorts, slippers or sleeveless blouses to church. It has always been a parallel- between the attire of a parishioner and the church itself. Should there be a case to justify this statement, it simply should be because we should show respect to the utmost Being to which we are worshiping, and not because to envisage a something becoming more than a correlation will prove to be too much. And from the above mentioned point, different styles of clothing suit different people. So why is it that only a sleeveless would attract unwanted attention if a person looks better in a sleeved top rather than one lacking it.
Is the male deemed to be of such shallow, fatuous nature? That a girl in a tank-top and shorts will prove to be more of a turn on compared to another clad in jeans and a sweater. In my opinion, we should give more credit than that to them, if it really is true, that some males are no more than a lumbering hormone-crazed creature, then think for a little, which girl would want this being to be attracted to them? Will it not prove to be more of an ignominy than something to be exalted about?
“ It’s quite hypocritical, you talk about how God accepts everyone, yet you pull apart each other on small things..” This poignant statement from a non-believer friend of mine led me to fully understand the elusive thoughts and feelings that had been skirting around the edges of my mind for weeks. If God accepts everyone, then why are we choosing and judging in his place. Much less on attire! Shouldn’t we instead be looking at hearts and intentions instead of outermost appearances and dressing?
The sublime but caustic words do hurt and make one self doubt and be in a state of mental turmoil. Perhaps it is time for change.
'Jol
Everytime you make one authorotative step forward with good intentions, I take ten indigenous steps back. It makes me feel cloistered and draws me into a state of taciturn. I know the limits, the boundaries, the rules, please don't treat me as a new believer. It damages. Mentally, psychologically. And for all I'm feeling; I'm sorry, I never wanted it either.
2:29 PM
Saturday, October 17, 2009,
The Fire Inside of me's Dying.
It's dying.
`jol
We laugh, we cry, then we die. We all die.
It's dying.
`jol
We laugh, we cry, then we die. We all die.
12:07 PM
Tuesday, October 13, 2009,
WELLL HEL-LO!
days been filled, busy, packed-jam, frankly, i'm glad to be kept so busy with no space to breathe. That way, it's more like just doing things one after another. I feel like a part of me's died. yeah well, least i got to meet up with all the awesome people!
okay, starting from last week eh,
i can only remember from friday =.=
FRIDAY: met Jolyn Yuki (my not-so-look-alike Twin) at 10 at city hall, studied(somewhat) then rushed down to bishan to meet the GY Hope people for more study, though i just slacked and joked and lamed, couldn't concentrate. left early, home, changed, packed my stuff, biked to Alson's place, it was his birthday celebration.
Angel and Roy were there too,
here's the hitch, Alson invited like 20 or so of his school mates so was kept busy entertaining them, Angel, Roy and I pretty much kept to ourselves. I stayed the night, Roy had to leave at like 11 D:
was.. pretty boring. You'd think 20 half naked, prettttyyy fit guys in the jacuzzi upstairs and us being the only two girls, would be a bundle of fun.
Guess what? ITS NOT. was kinda. boring. guess we were both just too exhausted or moody to make friends which led to us daoing everybody :l ughh, note to self: Be more friendly.
WELL THATS IT.
SATURDAY was fine, sat was fun
service was awesome awesome awesome!
had to leave almost immediately after.
been feeling really claustrophobic really.. but yeah, guess it's just me. It's always me.
Work at night. nothing much to it. I've new colleages, Some poly guy and some girl my age, the girl only communicates in chi, so i had a hard time trying to reach out till i finally gave up. i didn't like the guys's hair :o
SUNDAY
was quite cool.
woke late, met angel at thomson plaza at 10plus to study
was... semi-productive i'd say? tho i only managed to finish like one math paper1!
hahaa okay. so what if it wasn't productive?!
to Arab street in the afternoon with her
was super hot! SEE PEOPLE, THESE ARE THE EFFECTS OF GLOBAL WARMING! so much for "saving the Earth"..
I think, The world is ending. seriously!
well. was quite fun la, but we were both ill and tired. and studies were on our mind.
Guess the phrase " Guilty Pleasure" is a hoax. You can't feel pleasure when you're guilty!
WELL PICTURES!
AND I END HERE!
And we all know she'll one day become a model.
Number 35
10:36 PM
Friday, October 09, 2009,
I'm coming out of my cage.
And I've been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss
"Cuz I'm Mr Brightside"
'jol
6:49 PM
Monday, October 05, 2009,
WELL, I've loads to talk about, but it's 1.30, and I'm still sleep buzzed from having like 5 hours of sleep yesterday, so shall go through this briefly.
Well yeah, life's been full of siansation (quote from jolyn yuki) and i guess i'm glad everything happened. I skipped school from tuesday till like.. well.. now? Albeit Graduation Ceremony. Too much's been happening in too short and TOO WRONG a time.
A) conflicts
B) Mom had a stroke, was hospitalized
C) STUDIES.
Now i shall elaborate.
A; Conflicts, I guess i've learnt alot and "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger right?" But I'm glad we're gonna give each other a chance. Like, just didn't feel right to leave school with hatred in our hearts. Learnt of my wrongdoings that i never even knew i committed, which i guess is important i know, and i'm glad. Learnt to put all my faith in God, to know that i'll never, NEVER, stand alone, learnt to just let go of everything, learnt to have grace and hunility, to Think with my heart and Love with my brain. Learnt to love.
B; yeah, guess it's the worst of all things. I'm really close to my mom so.. yeah. neways a stroke is when a capillary in the brain gets blocked up or something causing different reactions in the body, in my mother's case, was temperal Paralysis. I hate that word. the brain scans are.. well. they're trying to decipher it, but in the meantime, please pray for her.
C; so we got back our report books. i've been skipping school so much i was clueless on the ongoing gossip till i started recieving loads of texts. apparently i did well, really really well, like a single digit. and i think, i don't know, like, i think it's all a big fluke. everything i studied just happened to come out all at once, so everyone now thinks im really really smart, but I'm Not. like, i can't do my worksheets, i consult David (who's a sec 3)like.. i don't know. think, it's better to get a B4 in prelims and an A1 in Os rather than an A1 in prelims and a B3 in Os. like.. it'll be harder to take, the dissapointment and the "Eh what happened man??" I don't know.. will share tips another time.
Graduation was.. somewhat fun?
I can't believe we have OFFICIALLY GRADUATED. it just feels so.. wrong?
i know i've been wanting to graduate for well.. quite some time, but it just feels. weird.
Neways performance was kinda cool.
surprisingly no tears!
PICTURES.
Clique, NFC
FAZ!
heh, syazwan was really REALLY good.
MAN UTD VS ARSENAL
B-BAR.
MATH. lol
4express2
well, so after grad ceremony, walked with chisun to j8 where he used my phone to call like.. i dno kaisong and Matt and had his SUPER long conversations so i had to stand there and wait till he returned it to me. THEN went to meet Angel and Vanessa for study! lol quite productive la since they're so disciplined. don't usually hang with Van, so was slightly weird, but ah well! haha she left early, ICE CREAM with angel then we lamed and joked and laughed our brains out and went home.
DONT WE LOOK LIKE SPIES!? (yeah i know i look spaz!)
SATURDAYChurch praise was SO AWESOME! well. whole svc was awesome as usual. With the awesome people, clement's birthday(but i dont really know him so.., haha) did some phsy, then rushed down to farrer park, it was DOMINIC's WEDDING! ( and No, Dominic-the-twin, i do not mean you.) well, it was a struggle having to change from my shirt and shorts to the gown and everything in the tiny public cubicle, but yeah. haha! then i was really bored and started playing with the chicken head with Bro, you can see the oesphagus and vetebrae!!! OH! and the eyeball was fried. cool or what? hahaD
Dominic who happens to be my cousin and super super tall, was marrying Angelia . well.. not much to say.. aint MY wedding. haha! kiddin! okay. err. i was pretty bored i guess.. entertainment be my bro's PSP and METAL SLUG!!!(love that game), headphones, and my book.
Dominic who happens to be my cousin and super super tall, was marrying Angelia . well.. not much to say.. aint MY wedding. haha! kiddin! okay. err. i was pretty bored i guess.. entertainment be my bro's PSP and METAL SLUG!!!(love that game), headphones, and my book.but overall, was bored cuz me, jess and javin were all seperated.
from here on, shall let the pictures do the rest of the talkin!!
This is mom and her PA. haha
This is mom and her PA. haha
Bro and i got bored, so we went EXPLORING! ( JUST LIKE DORA!) and the ballroom's at farrer park which means, YESH, CLIMB ASIA. aint that just cool. kinda creepy cuz the lights are all off and everything. haha havent been there to climb in MONTHS. wait til you see some figure climbing the wall in the pic. lol CLIMBAGHOST!
well, this is my family and my unglam photo,
PENG!
Myself, Jav and Jess.
Guess that was all. Home, Wrote my diary, cleared my table, looked through my old stuff, wrote somemore, slacked, read, slept at 3.
TODAY
woke at 8,
brought Sis (with accompament of bro) to Hope Kids childrens day! kinda weird cuz i dont know anybody there so.. yeah. haha hope she enjoyed herself, then went for lunch with family excluding dad whos working as usual, then to DBG to meet Chisun, Matt, David, MQ. awesome lot, unproductive afternoon tho.home by 10
RIGHTOS.
now that im done, ADIOS AMIGOS!
`Jol
Faith, Hope, Trust; They never fail you.
1:03 AM