Jolyn. 8th july 93. That isn't my expiry date; I'm inedible- sadly. You can call me Jol, but never Jo.
Extremely stubborn, and at some point of time, will probably piss you off real bad because of this.
Realist that dreams. Thinks to the extent that thoughts become a black and white rainbow or a shell-less snail that isn't a slug.
Climbs, bikes, writes and runs. Christian. I pray.
Studies Veterinary Technology in Temasek Polytechnic.
I blog because when you blog, you have to try to put thoughts that can't be put into words,
into words, to help people understand and this process helps me figure stuff out. I like words. I like irony. Freedom, at all costs.
I want to swim with a whale shark, run with a cheetah and fly the skies of the peregreine falcons before I die, and
I want to die with my eyes closed and heart open.
Anyhoo, have been working the past 3 days, yesterday I worked from 7am till bout 8pm and it absolutely killed me. Have been running about as production assistant for some film company and then doing office work after hours. But the stint is over and I think it was actually quite enjoyable. So thank you Sis. (: I have been thinking a lot- too much, and I think I'm slowly losing my mind. But some days are good and I'm thankful for them. On monday I brought my little sister to climb at CA and bumped with one of my oldest climbing friends by coincidence- it's been 6 years of climbing and 3 years since I last climbed with Nigel. Climbing is really such a lovely sport. You can hang about in the gym and basically talk to anyone- though you feel inferior, the elites aren't cocky and though you laugh at the expense of first-time-climbing posers, it is always without malice.
Today I was supposed to be biking with Justin, but just as we travelled all the way from town to the East (A whopping 30mins bus ride in huge singapore, I may add!) it started to really storm. So with our plans thwarted, we went back to town and caught You Are The Apple Of My Eye. Clem had mentioned it but I was reluctant because it was a mandarin film and I had low expectations. Today it Blew. Me. Away. I think this must be the best movie I've seen in theatres this year (Note: I haven't been to the cinema much this year due to my much smaller social circle in Perth and my thin wallet.) But really, I came out of the cinema wanting to just jump right back in and demand an encore. It was so good, no one in the entire audience left untill the credits finished rolling. Maybe I'm all up my pants because I haven't seen many decent films lately, but hey, I'd definitely recommend anyone to find some way some how to watch it.
I've been sad because I realized that I've yet again lost some friends this holidays. It's always the same, you return and realize that it's just not the same for some, the distance is too great. And I think it really bugged me more than I'd have cared to admit. But I think I have come to accept that some people are meant to merely pass through in your life. I lost a bestfriend this year, along with others I gave my heart to. But I think I've learnt to come to terms with life being as such. Sometimes I feel like people are angry because I've forgotten to reply a message awhile back or because I haven't really kept up to date, after moving to Perth. But I would just like to justify myself in saying that it's hard. I mean it's not a very feasible argument, but it's the truth. You're trying to adjust to a new country, you're trying to fit in, to get your 'A's and to well, survive. And it's hard to remember to keep up with your entire social circle from before. That's not to say I didn't care. It's just- well I've a life to lead too. At the very least, I could say the same for you. I genuinely am sorry to anyone who may have felt like I wasn't giving enough, but I pray you have the empathy to realize that while all you had to work on was one friend, I had to do with 20. I don't have the arrogance to blame anyone. It breaks me but such is life, and it too, will come to pass.
For now I just pray that I may have a sea of patience, a heart of empathy and that I may be humbled and remain humble, and grant me, Lord, strength and above all, courage to fight this through. And in all things may I remain thankful.
